i want to cry

i desperately need some obscure vent tolerating board. but one i know is no more, another two i got banned from. say what you want but i don't know how to live this life as myself it's basically like solving abstract geometry with a stick kill me

>>9210 Go on the darknet, few people will see it but you can still get out there you know

I don't really know any darknet boards guess i'll have to research it somehow

>>9215 wiki.installgento.org

>>9205 okayyy!

uuuugh going to sleep now. the exam to decisde my future is in 7 hours wish me luck hikarins

>>9211 good luck!

>>9203 it's not nice posting a long scary text under a thread talking about ADHD

uuuugh exam today!!! ring the bells!!!! if i die i die!!! i always loved you hirkarins!!!!

that looks pretty good good job

>>9207 thank you!!

>>9136 That's nice :D, hope your skills didn't degrade too bad -w-

i'm drinking vodka with soda water and lime juice. i've been reading, practicing guitar, cooking new things, and lifting which i guess is a hobby. real life is going okay. i have a lot of things going for me but i don't feel very fulfilled as of now. being active in my Church helps with this somewhat.

Im drinking fanta Ive been putting together gunpla I kind of want to kill my self but im not gonna

> What are you drinking? monster energy ultra strawberry dreams.. tried it for the first time, it's pretty decent. i prefer sour flavors though > Are you practicing any hobbies? just drawing every now and then. and playing video games.. currently playing rdr2 > How is real life going? my last exam is tomorrow. then i'm done graduating... i didn't study. pretty sure i'll pass but.. i'm really scared of oral exams social anxiety nightmare.

>>9200 >oral exams

>>9193 i wish, but i am fucked even without medication

>>9193 i remember hoping i'd get medicated and then i got adhd meds and became fucking miserable now i just stick to caffeine man.. i don't even wanna know how i'd be like on antidepressants when i'm already awfully numb and unmotivated...

>>9195 if you aren't actively struggling with things like self harm or suicidal thoughts then i'd be skeptical of medication. i'm not saying to avoid them, i'm no doctor, but in my experience they're best for stabilizing you so you don't off yourself. i think things like proper sleep, proper diet, exercise, socialization, having fulfilling pastimes, etc are much more long-term solutions. remember that it takes a lot of small steps to travel long distances. praying for you hikarins.

>>9196 yeah i defo agree with that.. i do struggle with self harm but i think there's a different origin to that than depression, at least for me. i don't think i have the "classic" type of depression, if that makes sense? i do have depressive episodes, but i generally have an unstable mood. can go in the other direction too. i don't know, i might have bipolar.. or cptsd. i don't know. i'm not looking for advice or armchair diagnoses, i'm just thinking out loud. i should ask my psych at my next appointment... hoping though. never stop trying hikarins... there's awesomes in life if you know where to look for them

>>9190 I've been feeling like this recently too

>>9178 Give the games a try. You can start with Touhou 6 or Touhou 7, since 5 and earlier are for the PC-98 machines and require emulation (though you can start with those too if you want). For PC-98 I use DOXBox-X. Best PC98 games are definitely Touhou 4 and 5.

>>9187 https://en.touhouwiki.net/wiki/Touhou_Wiki has all the information you could ask for The older Touhou games are not on steam and so you would have to order the game CD. You can find them on Moriya Shrine too Also, most Touhou games are actually fangames since the Touhou licensing allows for commercial use of fanmade content. The only official Touhou media is in the wiki I sent above

Zun still dominates the web 30 years after

>>9187 i'll take a look, thank you my goat emulation is not a problem for me so i might look at the older games as well

>>9178 start with the pc-98 games they're very easy to emulate. don't start with 6 you need to build your way up https://nyaa.si/view/1743332

>>9175 yeah honestly it's really weird and offputting. taken too far and shits up any thread it's started in.

though i like to make related jokes (in a light form) once in a while, i have to agree with OP. take anything too far and it stops being fun. people need to learn some basic humor principles or something

>>9098 It's been almost 4 years since the last time i ate cereal Moved out of my homeland to go live in another country, and i kid you not; i havent found cereal boxes being sold ANYWHERE

tried half water half milk with oatmeal to save money and it wasnt as nice, so i dare not risk having it will 100% water (not really cereal but kind of related)

>>9148 oats are a cereal in the more archaic use of the word so it still counts

cereal is sugary mothingness for children. avoid that shit if you're a grown adult

>>9132 Are you the same person from the textboard? I answered your thread, you said posting was banned in your country?

>>9104 go ahead!

>>9106 noooo

what do I pick if I don't want sex but I do want mutual hikarin fondling?

>>9111 this poll specifically isn't about fondling, but "N-not for your sake!" should do!

I am so happy with the results of this poll, hikarins!

I'm a 4cuck refugee who decided to settle here.

Who's been here since the site looked like this?

>>9084 glad to have you

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>>9091 Me!